usually first impression s'kin mataray,masungit and the likes..uhm,sad to say totoo un kc hndi ako msyadong sociable unless there's something in one person that i really like..sbi ng mga close s'kin good listener dw ako but i think im better in ignoring what they are saying pero when i feel n kylangn mo tlga ng mkikinig sau game ako lalo n kung nkakarelate ako s topic mo..'yoko s mga self-proclaimed..those who say a lot 'bout themselves (who cares 'bout them,anyway?) hehehe..trip ko mga humorous kc moody ako..another thing 'bout me is ung temper ko..uhm,it's always at the edge, u knw what i mean..if u nid 2 knw more basahin mo mga testi s'kin kc im sure they say a lot of things 'bout me.. :]
I couldn't blame my abdominal and leg muscles to cramp ruthlessly. The unplanned turn of events gave my blood a sudden swoosh! I listened carefully and gave them unbelieving looks..all i could do was just let everything flow smoothly. It was yet another proof of the fluidity of my life. Everything should cope up with the velocity, viscosity, pressure and other factors therein, so that in the end, I will still float..alive and kicking.
Many surprising and shocking yet significant events in my life happened in Wednesdays. 25Feb2004. 22Oct2008. 11Mar2009. 08Apr2009.... Today is 12Aug2009..another Wednesday..another twist..another flip.
The meeting was originally just about the progress of our project..but as the discussions went on, problems were foreseen, resolutions were planned, and my immediate future was trapped. I wanted to cry out and ask, "What about my own plans??" But then again, do I have any?? All I know is that I want to end my research career as soon and as successfully as possible. I don't want to leave hanging any project that I have started. I want to preserve my credibility as well.
The proposal was unfair..(it usually is anyway)..but i have no choice..and I realized that it was always the case in my fluid life. If there is only one tunnel that lies ahead, there's no way I can not pass through it. Some things really have to happen..and these are the achingly inescapables..
Just pass and flow..but the worse about it is that when I finally reach the ocean, I'll be lost again..lost than ever.
As the meeting approached dismissal, the irony of life became clearer to me. I stared at the condensates forming on the bottle of my iced tea. I let out a deep sigh and continued listening..there are really no coincidences in life..
I just thanked the Master Storyteller for not incorporating the word "migraine" on that part of my fluid story otherwise I would have burst and vanish like a thin bubble..helpless.
