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audentes fortuna juvat: December 2008
ABOUT ME:
chalkleight
chalkleight
Los Banos, Laguna, Philippines
usually first impression s'kin mataray,masungit and the likes..uhm,sad to say totoo un kc hndi ako msyadong sociable unless there's something in one person that i really like..sbi ng mga close s'kin good listener dw ako but i think im better in ignoring what they are saying pero when i feel n kylangn mo tlga ng mkikinig sau game ako lalo n kung nkakarelate ako s topic mo..'yoko s mga self-proclaimed..those who say a lot 'bout themselves (who cares 'bout them,anyway?) hehehe..trip ko mga humorous kc moody ako..another thing 'bout me is ung temper ko..uhm,it's always at the edge, u knw what i mean..if u nid 2 knw more basahin mo mga testi s'kin kc im sure they say a lot of things 'bout me.. :]
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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
i hate new years..
i hate new years..
ang bitter e 1st day pa lang ng taon..hahaha don't get me wrong..i have a few valid reasons why i said that so..for instance, 'pag new year, kelangan mo iwan yung nakaraang taon..yeah, i always find leaving something a heart ache.
last year has been a very lucky year for me..ang dami kong natutunan..kahit medyo di maganda ang naging simula non, ok naman natapos ang lahat..
i would like to take this chance to look back once more on the highlights of each month last year.
January - it was a big loss for me and my family..my beloved grandmother departed..first time ko maka-experience ng ganong klaseng loss..salamat sa lahat ng taong tumulong para makalimutan ko kahit papano yung hirap ng nawalan ng isang importanteng tao sa buhay..at one year na yun sa january 12..im definitely missing her..
February - naka-recover na 'ko sa lahat ng mga pangit na nangyari nung january..i got new friends..one of them was Edz^__^
March - i was able to finish my second to the last sem..wala akong kagana-gana nun..i entirely hated studying..mas naging busy ako sa pagsama sa mga nagsesenting mga batchmates na ga-graduate na..
April - graduation ng mga batchmates kong bio..grabe akala ko sobrang mag-iisa na talaga ako afterwards..pero ang dami ko lang palang na-take for granted na mga tao..and they proved to be as good as those who have left.
May - sobrang na-enjoy ko summer classes ko nun..at naniniwala akong pumayat ako dahil sa hmm WF!wahaha..nakapag-adjust ako sa mga bagong tao at medyo ginanahan ulit mag-aral..at tumanda ng isang taon..
June - start ng sem..excited ako dahil last sem ko na..sinimulan kong lubusin ang lahat tungkol sa buhay-estudyante..at nagsimula rin na maging extra-pasaway talaga ako..
July - ahh..dito nangyari yung point na nagkaron ako ng 2-week isolation..pinilit kong kayanin..marami namang sumuporta sakin..and i thought i won..but then..
August - hindi ko kinaya..ang hirap e..but it was a blessing in disguise..everthing about that isolation paid off..naging masaya naman ako sa outcome..in fact, sobrang saya
September - kahit pressured ako sa mga tanong tungkol sa mga plano ko sa buhay, i carried on..paborito kong sagot ang "i'll cross the bridge when i get there.." i continued to enjoy my friends' company..
October - and enjoyed some more..kasabay ng pagka-stressed sa immunology..at iba't ibang klaseng mga tanong pa tungkol sa kung ano nang sunod na mangyayari..at ang daming nangyari..sobrang dami..at nabago bigla ang buhay ko..wahahaha ang drama!
November - akalain mong bigla nalang akong nagkatrabaho..at nabagot nang todo sa trabaho..at nainip..at nabagot ulit..at nag-countdown para sa Christmas break..
December - and it was Christmas again..masaya talaga ang advent season..ayoko na mag-elaborate..basta masaya..at nag-start ako ng panibagong countdown para sa sunod na pasko..
wala na 'kong naiwan sa 2008..i guess, tamang i-welcome nga ang 2009 with open arms.hehe
pero seriously ngayon e bothered talaga ako sa mga pwedeng mangyari..ewan nga ba..hindi ko rin naman ma-point out kung ano talaga iniisip ko..hayy
basta..eto nalang muna..mahaba pa ang taon..marami pa akong masusulat..at marami pa kayong mababasa.^_____^
happy 2009!
masaya ako para sa inyong lahat.
ingat kayo lagi.
happy holidays.
i love you all.
^______^
I’m not a fan of boxing but I used to watch Pacquiao’s fights back home – not because I’m interested on those punches and all. I just watched them to be able to make outrageous comments about the fight and about the people I watched them with. I would usually remind my brothers about breathing regularly..oh, now I miss home.
The idea of getting out and seeing what the place would look like while Pacquiao was stopping the world came in to me. Surely the television sets in all the establishments and residential areas would be showing the match. Most of the passersby would stop for a while with the boxing fans – and they would all stare at the television with the “ohhs!” in their eyes. There would be lesser automobiles on the road..and there would be some who would just hug themselves inside their jackets, continue their walks against the cold wind, and questioningly look but completely uninterested with whatever the other people were extremely excited about.
And that boring predictability outside disgusted me. Since I already know what I would be seeing, what’s the point of going out?
I got back to bed and continued reading the compilation of 14 Love Stories (UP Jubilee Student Edition) which shows the transition of how Filipino love stories were written since Paz Marques Benitez’ boring Dead Stars (wee! high school English!) up to Noelle de Jesus’ (no comment yet) In Her Country.
On the third love story, I overheard that Pacquiao won the match. I mumbled “Okay..” and continued reading while the Filipino champ was giving his speech. I observed that he has improved his English. He was speaking the foreign language faster and I wasn’t able to catch a single word except for “Thank you..”!! Or was it just a hangover from his adrenaline rush??
When the television was turned off, the landlady started playing a series of Christmas songs. She also started singing her lungs out, and soon her husband joined her..and they both dreamt of a white Christmas..
Yes, it’s only 18 days to go..and it’s Christmas Day again. Then what? After that day, people will just start waiting for the next Christmas..and so on.
I don’t know what’s with this e-thing which keeps me from getting excited over Christmas. Oh, how I wish I was that child again who believed that she has seen Santa Claus riding his sleigh pulled by the running reindeers crossing over the bridge!
Such a loser, isn’t she??
It was not a good morning. It was raining when I woke up. I would want to stay curling under the sheets..but then..it was not one of those sweet undergrad days! Wake up shara!!
I snoozed off the alarm and got up groggily. It must be the spicy, fishy-smelling noodles and the kimchi last night..uhh..i shuddered at the thought of eating them again..never mind the spicy, fishy-smelling noodles..but that fermented cabbage, hayy..not again.
I lazily prepared myself for work, keeping in mind that my time (now) was not advanced anymore. I moved it last Friday in accordance with the “exact” time. Twenty minutes later than my old time system.
It felt odd – moving with the “exact” time..i couldn’t help but move faster when my phone said that it was already 7:30am..and I had just finished taking my bath.
The next thing I noticed, I was running up to the admin parking lot wondering as to where the bus has gone..did it go without me??left me?? It was just 7:43!! No way. Darn my “exact” time.
I was thinking of riding the IPB bus instead..IPB?? Why was it there? Does it arrive after the biotech bus has left? I looked ahead, (and surprise shara!) the biotech bus was just approaching the parking lot! (I learned that the IPB bus goes earlier than the biotech bus..and when I usually arrive, the IPB bus has already gone.)
Whew!
All the while I thought I was late, but it turned out that I was even earlier than the bus..and four minutes earlier than my usual arrival time.
Indeed, one of the thrills of life is on believing that we are chasing after time, while in fact it’s the other way around.
dahil natulog ako hanggang 2pm..ayan medyo bangag ako..13 hours of sleep..nakakabobo ba yun??
itinakbo ko nalang kanina para medyo mawala yung lightheadedness..yeah, just like last year..(haha the power of journals!) naalala ko tuloy ang mga kalokohan ko..silly me..
malapit na nga ang pasko..paglabas ko kanina, naramdaman ko nga agad yung lamig..hayy napaka-nostalgic ng mga narinig kong christmas songs sa bawat tindahan na nadaanan ko..natuwa naman ako sa mga pinasukan kong boutiques na puno ng mga taong naghahanap ng something soft, yun din kasi hinahanap ko..napangiti nalang ako sa mga partners na magkakahawak ng kamay habang naglalakad, mga nakangiti naman sila..may iba naman na nakatambay sa coffee shops at binabasahan ang girlfriends nila ng libro..isn't it sweet?
don't get me wrong..hindi ako bitter. at hindi defensive.
may mga gay partners pa nga akong nakita na magkayakap sa freedom park..malamig nga siguro..
pero unang araw pa lang ng disyembre..sa mga susunod na araw kaya, ano pang mapapansin ko??