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audentes fortuna juvat: October 2008
ABOUT ME:
chalkleight
chalkleight
Los Banos, Laguna, Philippines
usually first impression s'kin mataray,masungit and the likes..uhm,sad to say totoo un kc hndi ako msyadong sociable unless there's something in one person that i really like..sbi ng mga close s'kin good listener dw ako but i think im better in ignoring what they are saying pero when i feel n kylangn mo tlga ng mkikinig sau game ako lalo n kung nkakarelate ako s topic mo..'yoko s mga self-proclaimed..those who say a lot 'bout themselves (who cares 'bout them,anyway?) hehehe..trip ko mga humorous kc moody ako..another thing 'bout me is ung temper ko..uhm,it's always at the edge, u knw what i mean..if u nid 2 knw more basahin mo mga testi s'kin kc im sure they say a lot of things 'bout me.. :]
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Thursday, October 23, 2008
Post-sem Evaluation: huling hirit
Post-sem Evaluation: huling hirit
Kahit talagang busy ako ngayon, kelangan ko gumawa ng post-sem evaluation
Di ko pa nakukuha mga classcards ko kaya di ko pa masasabi grades ko..pero sabagay di ko naman talaga isinasama sa kwento ang mga grades ko.
Recap muna ng sem-start ko.. http://shara0508.multiply.com/journal/item/124/a_lot_different_sem_starter..
At ngayon ay natapos na ang lahat ng yun..napakabilis..humahabol lang talaga tayong lahat sa oras..ang mahuli, kawawa..
MCB 102 (Virology) – naging ka-close ko yun si Won..ayos kasi sya..masayahin..at eto ang hindi ko makakalimutang usapan habang magkakasama kami nina joyce, kuya edsam at won sa kfc..
Won: …no, I’m a poor guy.. (laughs)
Kuya Edsam: uhh..that’s the safest statement to say when you’re in the
Ok lang naman ako sa Virology..nag-enjoy din naman kasi parang naging free time ko yun at ginagamit sa pagsusulat ng mga journal entries na di ko natatapos sulatin the previous night..kahit lagi talaga akong badtrip sa isang mayabang na kaklase..well..hayy..nag-aaksaya lang ako ng ATP kaya di ko nalang sya iisipin..kadaldalan ko rin si Edz lagi dun..mamimiss ko ang Lecture Hell 3..ay, Hall pala..
MCB 150 (Microbial Ecology) – a relatively easy course..take note of the word relatively..hahaha naalala ko lang ang bonus item na yan sa last exams ng lab at lect..si sir talaga!
Isa ‘to sa mga major na bagay na inikutan ng buhay ko this previous sem..ang tindi ng labworks..ubos-oras..lider pa..pamatay lalo ang exams..ang lecture nito ang may pinakamarami kong absences kahit
Sa lab, himala talaga ang nangyari sa’min..aba, P14 lang each ang contribution para sa mga nabasag o nawalang lab equipment (glass syringe, rubber stoppers, stirring rods)..mainggit kayo mga micromates!!hahaha maingat pala kami..ay, sila lang pala..kasi ako nakabasag nung glass syringe..careless shara!
Na-enjoy ko sobra ang mga side trips namin! Yun ang masaya dito, na-meet ko ang isang teacher na game talaga sa mga hikings..isa sa tatlong pinakamagagaling na teachers ko sa UPLB.
Hindi sa pagtatapos ng sem matatapos ang mga trips namin..well, sana..
VMCB 124 (Fundamentals of Immunology) –fundamentals and yet pakiramdam ko na-tackle na namin lahat..matagal-tagal din kaming nagsama ni Tizard..inaabangan nya palagi ang pag-uwi ko at umaasang papansinin ko sya..hayy
Hindi naging biro ang subject na’to sa’kin..hindi ko talaga makakalimutan..kaklase, teacher, classroom, lessons..definitely note-worthy experiences..ang dami kong natutunan..pang-GS talaga ang type of evalution dito..at congrats sa’kin dahil kinaya ko..muli’t muli salamat sa mga taong sumuporta sa’kin..^______^
HFDS 11 (Human Development) – bigla nalang natapos ang subject kong ‘to..basta ang alam ko tinamad akong pumasok..tapos..ewan na..may case study kami, may mga reportings na im promptu at may poster na ginawa..salamat karl at jamie..naging napakadali ng lahat.hahaha
FRCH 10 (Grammar and Composition) – dahil sa subject na ‘to may nakalagay ako sa resume ko, sa part ng Language Spoken, na “French (basic)”..wahaha kapal ng mukha!! E bakit??anong silbi nung mga bonjour-bonjour ko kung di ko lang din malalagay dun??pinagtyagaan ko ring pasukan yun ah! Nung mga huling meetings nga lang e inaantok na ako palagi..je suis desolee madame Lozano..
BIO 199 (Undergraduate Seminar) – isa lang absent ko dito ah!sipag ko ‘no??hahaha ayos naman yung seminar ko..tapat sa unang hellweek ng sem na yun..crammed presentation as usual..ano pa nga bang aasahan sa’kin??
Whew! At last, goodbye acads na!!
Masaya dahil tapos na nga..malungkot kasi alam ko hahanap-hanapin ko ang classrooms, ang exams, ang pagpasok ng late, ang pang-ookray sa mga kaklase, ang pagpapasaway sa mga teachers, ang pressure, ang cramming modes, ang pagtambay after class, ang pagtakbo paakyat ng 3rd floor ng biosci, ang pagsusulat ng journal entries sa klase, at iba pang mga kalokohan..
Iba na ang buhay ko simula nung isang araw..ang aking life-changing day..masaya talaga..hindi kapani-paniwala..i feel not so deserving of God’s blessings..totoo talagang pag ginusto mo ang isang bagay, mapapasayo yun..^_~
Mami-miss ko ang pagsusulat ng post-sem evaluation.
Siguradong may mga bagong kalokohan na naman akong magagawa (ooopppss..kakasabi pa lang kanina ng adviser ko na magpakabait ako at bawasan pagpapasaway..hehehe behave lang shara..) at mga bagong entries na masusulat..
Excited na’ko! Samahan nyo pa rin ako ha??
Walang magawa..i just spent my time browsing my blogs..and i found this one..
It really felt so nice to be here..ilang beses akong nalito sa pagdedecide tungkol sa mga bagay na pare-parehong importante..and at the end of the day, dun ka talaga mag-stay sa lugar kung san ka talaga masaya..
at masaya ako dito..
Excerpt 24May2008: My New Hometown
i am supposed to be preparing on my way home by now. but i cannot just leave this beautiful morning behind.
as usual, the growling As-Long -As-You-Love-Me alarm signal pulled me out of my dreamworld..what a cool morning! i was tempted to make myself believe that it was drizzling outside and i won't be able to run, thus, i can stay in bed, clutch my blanket and snore some more..but then something pushed the thought aside and told me to check whether it was indeed drizzling or not. well, as fate have had it, the dry freshness of the outside world greeted me as i look behind the window..the sun has not yet fully risen..it appeared almost pink and orange behind the clouds..i took some pictures and a video of that gloriously rising sun.i don't know what has gotten into me, but i liked it.
the sweet smelling morning air washed me all over as i stepped out of the dorm. it was one of the many things that i really like in uplb..the combined smell of freshly cut grasses, morning sunlight, cool air..the unique combination i won't forget. when i get to smell that in some other places in the future, surely i will get myself in a trance of nostalgia..the memories will undoubtedly unfold itself..the tragicomic, sweet and bitter memories of my college days.
thinking about my future, uhm, my vague future, i am considering los baños to be the place where i'll be settling in case i would not be planning to go abroad. there's nothing much here actually, but this place has always been a comfort zone..my fortress..this is the only place where i can go out, even alone, at night. i feel so safe here. and so far, this is the right place where i think i would grow more. this is my new hometown now.
i know i have to get out of this place if i really wanted to be "Shara the Explorer". in a matter of months, i'll be out there, somewhere else..who knows? Sa'n ako pupulutin?
one good thing about leaving, though, is that you can always go back. and i'm sure i'll get back here, in the right time because i believe that this is the right place..and that's a good reason.
right now, i'm brave enough to let everyone know that i'm home --- in my new hometown.^_^
This is the best time to write a blog entry..i have just finished watching (for the nth time) one of my favorite movies..without suffering, there’ll be no compassion..there it was again..i know you can guess what the movie was.hehehe
I can’t write about anything in particular..i can’t focus, that’s the problem..good songs are playing in the background, shucks!, this is just a step lower than obsession..uhh..back to the old pathetic habit of just blankly staring, thinking of the only one face visible in my mind..
and I can’t sleep.
It’s the exceptionally emotional part of me which makes me feel like this over these mushy and cheesy lyrics of the songs I’m hearing right now. Darn..
and I can’t stop it.
Let’s play. This is just to get myself back into the yawning mode. Give me the titles of these songs.
“I wonder why I feel so high though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted ‘til you call my name
And it felt like churchbells or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening I’ll run to meet you barefoot barely breathing..”
Yeah, right. I am not bothered now about how anyone would react about this. Nostalgic lyrics. Reminds me of that sense of longing I felt in the past which almost totally turned my system down. Blame the song. Blame the way I can relate to its message. Blame this emotion. You can even blame the hormones..
and I don’t care..
“..and it really doesn’t matter if we don’t eat
And it really doesn’t matter if we never sleep
And it really doesn’t matter, really doesn’t matter at all..”
Nothing matters now because I am so young..now, you’re bursting with laughter, aren’t you?? Next..
“..pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it’s just a lie
So afraid of taking chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside..”
It’s just hunger, I’m sure..agree??
“..what took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now..”
I have no idea.
Yep, I’m healthier now..
I’ve always wanted rational things..
No, I’m not yet aware..
“..just when you think you got me figured out
The season has already changin’..”
It’s one of the songs surely my roommates would be reminded of me..it was my alarm signal before the old beloved cellphone of mine got junked..a hundred times it was played in a hundred mornings that I forced myself to get out of bed..and by the time I noticed that the song was already on its fifth time around, my roommates would be all up, restraining themselves to shout that I am indeed a *****. Peace! I’ll miss you too guys.
“..yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy..”
And who would not??
“.. I surrender to the strawberry ice cream..”
Naah..cookies and cream my dear..
“..trying to identify the shadows in my mind..”
One of my all time favorites..I really love it’s relaxing beat..
“..and never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name..”
I’ll be suing this song for penetrating murderously deep in my head..and it doesn’t seem to get out of my gray matter..a crazy case of LSS..
At last..a yawn got out..I’ll be sleeping now..
“..if you look in my eyes
And you see what’s inside
Would you even care??”
The prize??hmm..good night.^_~
This is the best time to write a blog entry..i have just finished watching (for the nth time) one of my favorite movies..without suffering, there’ll be no compassion..there it was again..i know you can guess what the movie was.hehehe
I can’t write about anything in particular..i can’t focus, that’s the problem..good songs are playing in the background, shucks!, this is just a step lower than obsession..uhh..back to the old pathetic habit of just blankly staring, thinking of the only one face visible in my mind..
and I can’t sleep.
It’s the exceptionally emotional part of me which makes me feel like this over these mushy and cheesy lyrics of the songs I’m hearing right now. Darn..
and I can’t stop it.
Let’s play. This is just to get myself back into the yawning mode. Give me the titles of these songs.
“I wonder why I feel so high though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted ‘til you call my name
And it felt like churchbells or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening I’ll run to meet you barefoot barely breathing..”
Yeah, right. I am not bothered now about how anyone would react about this. Nostalgic lyrics. Reminds me of that sense of longing I felt in the past which almost totally turned my system down. Blame the song. Blame the way I can relate to its message. Blame this emotion. You can even blame the hormones..
and I don’t care..
“..and it really doesn’t matter if we don’t eat
And it really doesn’t matter if we never sleep
And it really doesn’t matter, really doesn’t matter at all..”
Nothing matters now because I am so young..now, you’re bursting with laughter, aren’t you?? Next..
“..pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it’s just a lie
So afraid of taking chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside..”
It’s just hunger, I’m sure..agree??
“..what took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now..”
I have no idea.
Yep, I’m healthier now..
I’ve always wanted rational things..
No, I’m not yet aware..
“..just when you think you got me figured out
The season has already changin’..”
It’s one of the songs surely my roommates would be reminded of me..it was my alarm signal before the old beloved cellphone of mine got junked..a hundred times it was played in a hundred mornings that I forced myself to get out of bed..and by the time I noticed that the song was already on its fifth time around, my roommates would be all up, restraining themselves to shout that I am indeed a *****. Peace! I’ll miss you too guys.
“..yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy..”
And who would not??
“.. I surrender to the strawberry ice cream..”
Naah..cookies and cream my dear..
“..trying to identify the shadows in my mind..”
One of my all time favorites..I really love it’s relaxing beat..
“..and never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name..”
I’ll be suing this song for penetrating murderously deep in my head..and it doesn’t seem to get out of my gray matter..a crazy case of LSS..
At last..a yawn got out..I’ll be sleeping now..
“..if you look in my eyes
And you see what’s inside
Would you even care??”
The prize??hmm..good night.^_~
Yehey!!di ko akalain na ganito pala yun kagaan..kahit ilang gabi na akong umiiyak dahil sa pag-alis ko sa pinakamamahal kong UPLB (corny ba??hehehe) iba pa rin yung feeling na sigurado ka nang pumasa ka na sa lahat..
Hindi naging big deal sa'kin ang pagpasa sa mga subjects ko..feeling ko given na yun na papasa ako (yabang??)..well, that was until i bump on VMCB124-Immunology..new college (College of Veterinary Medicine), new set of classmates (kahit mga fratmen na yung iba, mukha pa ring geeks..hehehe peace!), new environment (parang nasa ibang school ako pag pumapasok dun e), new teacher ("Shara!!my favorite student from BioSci!!")...
"You cannot experience one's best until you experience its worst."
Pagka-graduate ko nung high school, sinabi ko talaga na hindi ko na poproblemahin ang acads..kaya ganun nga ang nangyari pagpasok ko ng college..nagset ako ng rules sa klase, sa papers, sa exams, sa lahat..pero na-realize ko lately na naging exemption sa lahat ng yun ang immuno..dun ako nag-ayos talaga..walang meeting dun na nag-day dream ako..swear! (although minsan kinikilig talaga ako dun sa crush ko dun..ewan, napaka-enigmatic kasi..isa sa mga taong ang hirap basahin..and it makes me wonder about what he thinks..) walang meeting dun na dinaldal ko katabi ko..siguro dahil di ko naman sila ka-close.. walang meeting dun na hindi ko dinala ang notebook ko..hayy pinahirapan ako ng vet subject ko na yun..kasama na ang konsensya nung dalawang beses akong naka-absent..
Kanina nung papunta na'ko dun para tingnan ang standing ko..grabe yung kaba..kelangan ko talagang mag-isip ng ibang bagay para di masyadong mawindang..may mga classmates na'ko na nandun..at narinig ko sila na "O, ayan na si miss biosci..ate, pasado ka.." maniniwala ba ako??alam ba nila student number ko??
Sobrang na-excite ako na tingnan yung list kaya di ko na matandaan kung anong naging pagbati ko sa mga andun din..at grabe..sobrang pagpipigil yung ginawa ko dun ha..pinigilan kong sumigaw..oo, pasado nga ako.
Pagkakuha ko ng bluebook ko ng final exam, sobrang gumaan talaga ang pakiramdam ko..at last..naisip ko lahat ng mga taong tumulong sa'kin..sana alam nyo kung gano ko talaga kayo na-appreciate..lalo na sa dalawang mahalagang tao na hindi nakalimutan na finals ko nun..dahil alam nyo namang madrama talaga ako, oo, teary-eyed ako nung natanggap ko text messages nyo minutes before the exam..magkasunod pa kayo..kung alam nyo lang sana kung papano nyo napagaan ang loob ko nun..hindi talaga ako nag-iisa..hehehe maraming salamat talaga..alam nyo naman kung sino kayo.^____^
Teka..yung at last nasabi ko na!! nasabi ko na ang mga salitang "yey!ga-graduate na'ko!" mahina lang pagkasabi ko nun (kahit nasa freedom park ako at pwedeng sumigaw)..pero andun yung confidence..walang something na pumipigil sa loob..di ko na naisip pa ang hirap ng pag-alis..basta buong-buo yun.."yey!ga-graduate na'ko!" grabe..iba talaga ang moment na yun..
Indeed, God loves me so much..^______^
bakit ganon?lagi nalang nangyayari sakin 'to?yung mga ganito..........
kapag gusto ko nang magpagupit, feeling ko gumaganda ang buhok ko..kaya di nalang..
kapag gusto ko na mag-aral, nagugutom ako..kumakain, kaya di nalang nakakapag-aral..
kapag gusto kong matulog ng maaga, saka di inaantok..
kapag gusto ko bumangon nang maaga, saka mas masarap tumambay sa bed..
kapag gustung-gusto kong tumambay, saka walang tambay-mate..
kapag dapat na'kong umalis, saka mas maraming pumipigil..
tumigil na akong mag-countdown, hindi dahil nakalimutan ko..
nabibilang ko na rin kasi sa mga daliri ko ang mga araw..at habang nagbibilang ako, hayy..di ko na kelangang sabihin pa ang susunod..
at kagabi..naku..mas minahal ko na naman ang elbi..mas binigyan ko na naman ng importansya..mas ayoko na namang iwan..ang isip-bata at iyaking si shara..pinigilan ko umiyak 'no..hahaha thanks to the fireworks..
aalis na nga siguro ako..malinaw na yun..gusto ko pa magkwento..kaya lang di kausap ko si papa..malamig na ang kamay ako at di ko na kayang magtype..
sabi nga pala ng pinsan ko kanina..gusto ko lang ishare..
di baleng tamad, di naman pagod..tama naman di ba??hahaha