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audentes fortuna juvat: May 2008

ABOUT ME:

chalkleight

chalkleight

Los Banos, Laguna, Philippines

usually first impression s'kin mataray,masungit and the likes..uhm,sad to say totoo un kc hndi ako msyadong sociable unless there's something in one person that i really like..sbi ng mga close s'kin good listener dw ako but i think im better in ignoring what they are saying pero when i feel n kylangn mo tlga ng mkikinig sau game ako lalo n kung nkakarelate ako s topic mo..'yoko s mga self-proclaimed..those who say a lot 'bout themselves (who cares 'bout them,anyway?) hehehe..trip ko mga humorous kc moody ako..another thing 'bout me is ung temper ko..uhm,it's always at the edge, u knw what i mean..if u nid 2 knw more basahin mo mga testi s'kin kc im sure they say a lot of things 'bout me.. :]

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Wednesday, May 28, 2008







a text message

a text message

this message which came from usseljane really left me shattered..shattered??drama..

"Hala, shara! naiyak naman ako kasi parang hindi na tayo magkikita. hehe mami-miss kita shara sa pasukan..anyway, siguro nga **** is just passing by. nagkataon na andyan ka kaya sa'yo nakitambay. pero at least you had memorable moments with him. salamat din sa lahat, shara mae!"

that was her answer to my last message which went this way:

"Si ****? nagbago na ang lahat.di lang sa kanya.pati sa'kin. siguro nga influx lang ng endorphins yun. salamat nalang sa bittersweet memories with him..natuwa ako.nasaktan.makakalimot at makakahanap ng kapalit on the right time. at the right place, with a good reason..usseljane, salamat sa lahat."

that was a blast! "nagkataon na andyan ka kaya sa'yo nakitambay." ouch.ouch.ouch.

"salamat nalang sa bittersweet memories with him..natuwa ako.nasaktan.makakalimot at makakahanap ng kapalit on the right time. at the right place, with a good reason.." yeah, right..sana sooner.

should i be affected? (then what?)

or should i pretend not to feel anything? (Be a hypocrite?)

or should i cry? (wait..why should i?)

darn.it was my fault. the intrimitida, feeling-era, assume-era shara..hay..when will you learn?

let me quote from my last F101 update:

"So pano? bagsak na naman F101 ko? hayy..magpapa-readmit nalang ako..perhaps next sem?" ^_^

i am supposed to be preparing on my way home by now. but i cannot just leave this beautiful morning behind.

as usual, the growling As-Long -As-You-Love-Me alarm signal pulled me out of my dreamworld..what a cool morning! i was tempted to make myself believe that it was drizzling outside and i won't be able to run, thus, i can stay in bed, clutch my blanket and snore some more..but then something pushed the thought aside and told me to check whether it was indeed drizzling or not. well, as fate have had it, the dry freshness of the outside world greeted me as i look behind the window..the sun has not yet fully risen..it appeared almost pink and orange behind the clouds..i took some pictures and a video of that gloriously rising sun.i don't know what has gotten into me, but i liked it.

the sweet smelling morning air washed me all over as i stepped out of the dorm. it was one of the many things that i really like in uplb..the combined smell of freshly cut grasses, morning sunlight, cool air..the unique combination i won't forget. when i get to smell that in some other places in the future, surely i will get myself in a trance of nostalgia..the memories will undoubtedly unfold itself..the tragicomic, sweet and bitter memories of my college days.

thinking about my future, uhm, my vague future, i am considering los baños to be the place where i'll be settling in case i would not be planning to go abroad. there's nothing much here actually, but this place has always been a comfort zone..my fortress..this is the only place where i can go out, even alone, at night. i feel so safe here. and so far, this is the right place where i think i would grow more. this is my new hometown now.

i know i have to get out of this place if i really wanted to be "Shara the Explorer". in a matter of months, i'll be out there, somewhere else..who knows? Sa'n ako pupulutin?

one good thing about leaving, though, is that you can always go back. and i'm sure i'll get back here, in the right time because i believe that this is the right place..and that's a good reason.

right now, i'm brave enough to let everyone know that i'm home --- in my new hometown.^_^

i am not, in any case, inlove..im just letting myself be drowned in those bittersweet memories..the time during when i considered myself being idiotically head-over-heels inloved with that person..darn.

this morning, the longing to go back to the past was evoked by the smell of my new set of toiletries..it was the stupid in me..i bought those things that i came to use when i was pathetically sinking in the sea of endorphin and dopamine..nakakalunod..hayy..parang bumabalik yung pakiramdam kapag naaamoy ko ulit yung mga bagay na yun..but i'm smarter now..iniiwan nalang ang hindi na kelangan..harsh?i'm not to blame.

i let myself reminisce on some of the fun moments..amoy na amoy ko ang pag-ibig..miserable,isn't it?

Miss Saeki is right.."Memories warm you up from the inside..but they also tear you apart.."

Masaya mag-summer classes..konting tao, konting subjects, konting acad requirements..kahit talagang pina-problema ako ng pi100 na yun, ayos pa rin..tapos na e.

I survived. I almost thought I won't. And I was nuts for thinking so.

PI100: Open book naman 'to e..simula sa pagkakahumaling ko kay Rizal hanggang sa pagsusumpa ko sa kanya..hahaha sincerest apologies for you my beloved pepe..kaw naman kasi, pinahirapan mo buhay ko..halos apat na araw din yun ah! Pero dahil tapos na nga, bati na ulit tayo. Nyahahaha

kay Lee na talentado kong groupmate: saludo ako sa'yo!!salamat sa magagandang presentations.^_^

kay Sexy na groupmate ko rin at seatmate: salamat sa mga text messages.^_^

kay Marco na groupmate ko rin at seatmate: salamat sa leadership sa group.^_^

kay Cha, Tin at Ben na groupmates ko rin: salamat at goodluck.^_^

kay Kuya Emil na classmate ko: galing mong mag-joke!!ayos mga knock-knocks mo! Pasensya na nga pala sa luksong-baka nung naglaro tayo..first time ko yata yun e.hahaha^_^

Kaya nga pala ako hindi sumama sa fieldtrip (thus the problem about the individual project) kasi napaka-traumatic nung pag-iisa ko sa HIST2 fieldtrip last sem na lahat ng pictures ko ay solo, nakaupo ako sa front seat ng van nang solo, at muntik na akong mag-lunch nang solo..since then i promised that i would not be joining any fieldtrip without a close bud with me..e hindi ko pa naman ganon ka-close ang kahit sino sa pi100 class ko nung nag-fieldtrip, so i decided not to go and finish the series I was watching with Shayne instead..nag-enjoy ako kaya di ako nagsisi na hindi sumama..pero nung namomroblema na'ko sa project na kapalit nung fieldtrip na yun, halos magsisi na talaga ako..

STS1: Ah, Skit and Theater Subject 1..in fairness na-enhance ang aking pag-arte dahil dito..sabi nga ni apes, why don't I reconsider acting..grabe rin inabot kong pagpupuyat dahil sa one-night-termpaper na yun ah.tsk..at sobrang pasaway talaga dahil gumawa ako ng termpaper kahit hindi pa completely approved ang outline ko..sabi nga ni shayne "di ko makakalimutan ang kapasawayan mo, shara.."

kay Nikki na sobrang naging close ko: we did it!!hahaha pasaway ako lagi..buti kinaya mo 'ko.salamat sa suporta, sa tawanan, sa pakikinig, sa pasensya, sa kwentuhan at sa hopia..kitakitz sa biosci.^_^

kina Lai, Apple, Kat, Rochelle, Anne, Joyce, Rico, Boji, Randy, Herbert at Rupert na groupmates ko: ayos mga presentations natin!!salamat sa cooperation..go, group OK-OK!!^_^

Gen na seatmate ko at ka-micro: salamat sa paggising pag-inaantok na'ko..salamat sa strawberry keychain..sana maging classmates pa tayo sa mga micro subjects..^_^

kay ***** ******* na crush ko since freshman ako: we've been classmates in our earlier college years..tanda mo kaya ako?? (kunwari pa-demure) bakit ka kasi nag-shift? buti naging classmates ulit tayo..at sana maging classmates pa ulit..may kukunin akong subject sa college nyo next sem, hopefully, i'll see you there. (pa-demure pa rin..wahahaha)

Sorry sa pagiging absent-minded ko lagi sa klaseng yan..intindihin nyo naman..1pm-4pm akong nakaupo sa parehong upuan at parehong classroom..minsan straight talagang apat na oras di ako tumatayo..hayyy..

PE2-WF: Sinong nagsabing walang ka-challenge challenge 'to??..lakad lang pala ha??sira!!ibang lakad kaya 'to..under time pressure..may brisk, aero at race walk..ECS pa lang babanatin ka na..pamatay sa tagal ang relay..pero ang saya ng prelims at finals..

kay Nikki na sobrang naging close ko: we did it!!hahaha pasaway ako lagi..buti kinaya mo 'ko.salamat sa suporta, sa tawanan, sa pakikinig, sa pasensya, sa kwentuhan at sa hopia..kitakitz sa biosci.^_^ nga pala, takbo ulit tayo..nyahahaha

parehas lang ba message ko kay nikki??hehehe classmate ko rin sya dyan e..kaya nga from 2:45pm-6:15pm kaming magkasama..minsan sinasamahan nya pa akong mag-jogging after ng class.

Tapos na ang summer classes..6units + extra 2units down!! Ilang linggo nalang magsisimula na ulit ako..panibagong sem..panibagong pakikipagbuno sa oras..hopefully, panibagong attitude sa pag-aaral (saglit..ano yun??)

Mabilis lang ang oras..mamaya lang may ipo-post na naman akong post-sem evaluation..sana ang huling semestre ko dito sa unibersidad ay maging kapakipakinabang at kasiya-siya.

Sa aking mga naging guro sa summer classes ko: grabe..pinahirapan nyo ako ah! pero sa kabila ng lahat, ewan ko kung maniniwala kayo o hindi, marami akong natutunan..salamat!^_^ sana hindi na tayo magkasalubong sa loob ng unibersidad..ayoko na kayong makita pa..hehehehe

ang babaw 'no?

bakit, lahat ba ng taga-elbi naranasan na yun?hmp.

after ko mag-jogging, hinintay ko sina pamy at jonna para mag-breakfast daw sa IRRI..tsk.walang sawa..naglakad lang kami papunta, tapos kumain, tapos ayun, tumayo for 35 minutes..we were waiting in vain..for that IRRI bus..hayy..para lang ma-experience namin..nakakapagod aliwin ang sarili habang naghihintay..lalo na para sa'kin..di ko nga rin halos matanggap na nakaya kong maghintay ng ganon katagal..waiting is never fun, it's usually a boring task.

nung nakasakay na kami, (first time!!) hmm..wala..mahangin lang..syempre masaya kami dahil at last di ba nakaupo na kami at pabalik na.hehehe

…….

Familiar with the name Ambeth Ocampo? He’s a journalist of Philippine Daily Inquirer, a professor in Ateneo de Manila University and a historian. Last 20May2008, I sent him an email asking for help about my alternative termpaper topic (Rizal is a Gay). He replied at my requests and I was overwhelmed by his willingness to help. God’s blessings indeed come in different ways. Thanks a lot for these people. ^_____^

……..

Exactly one year ago, 21May2007, was my first day of practicum at Alaska, and it was Sir Gilbert Montano’s 30^th birthday. Ang bilis. It’s been a year.

Naalala ko pa mga ginawa ko nun. Dahil tinambakan nila ako ng readings about the company, I had no choice but to read all the materials. First day pa lang nakita ko na na seryoso si Sir Gilbert, makulit si Kuya Ron, tahimik si Kuya Niño, masipag si Kuya Lito at joker si Kuya Eric. Puro kuya ‘no? It was a summer full of Kuya’s. Kumusta na kaya sila? Sir Gilbert and I are still in touch, nasa Singapore s’ya. Kay Kuya Ron naman, the last thing I heard about him, hmmm..lumipat ng company??di ko alam kung san e. Dun sa tatlo wala na’kong balita. Hindi naman kasi nagrereply.

Wow. Naalala ko yung bonding naming bago natapos ang practicum period ko. Yung inuman session sa apartment ni Kuya Lito. Bisita si Sir Kim (UPLB graduate). Bale lima kami dun. Di ako uminom syempre. Kain lang ako nang kain.hahaha tapos nung gumabi na hinatid ako ni Sir Kim. Di ako nagpaalam kaya kelangan umuwi na. Natuwa ako nun kay Sir Kim. There was even some kilig factors. But then the next day, the rest of the Kuya’s made a bomb explode in my face. Nyahaha sekreto ko na yun!!

……..

I attended the mass this afternoon. I felt so light. I was so thankful about everything. Pamy was there too. After the mass, we had our dinner at Blitzwave then the cake-bonding at Ministop followed.

Kakatawa pa kasi wala kaming utensils for the cake. Ang kapal talaga ng mukha ko e. Konting ngiti lang sa tamang lugar at presto! Two pairs of spoon and fork! San ko nakuha?? Di pwedeng sabihin..nyahahaha A, I’m adorable..B, I’m so beautiful..C, I’m so cute and full of charm…^______^

Magkasama kami hanggang 10pm. Ang saya. Bawi sa kwentuhan. Kahit inabot na naman ako ng curfew sa dorm, okay lang. Sulit naman. Quality time with my best bud, intellectual conversation over a cake, picture session..will I still care about the curfew??

got this from ays' blog..i really loved this part of her entry..

........

"it's really difficult to be ignored.hard to be left behind, but harder to be left clueless.believe me, been there for a number of times and it really sucks. it really does. and i don't know why i passed by there and if i'll ever be there again. it makes you want to vanish, disappear or escape from reality.

sometimes, you just have to be your own superhero. you wont have superman to save you from all the villains in this world. you have to help yourself, save yourself. but how can you do that if your villain is you?your emotions? how can you fight?at this instance, i just want to be violet, to be invisible.

how i wish i have my own powerpuff girls who could save me from the gang green gangs pranks at my heart just to rule heartsville. or batman who would come w/ his bat mobile and rescue me from joker's evil jokes at my heart. perhaps superman could leave lois lane for a while and fly me to the moon so that i could breathe. how about steal aladdin's magic lamp to have his genie serve me. or just be invisible.for the world who continues to hurt me and you who have been staring for a long time but doesn't see me."

all the while i thought i'll have an incomplete grade in pi100..but then, i was wrong..very wrong..because God loves me more than i thought..

just 15 minutes ago, i was able to come up with a termpaper about the rizalistas in calamba..lucky, am i not??

when i told you that i will be winning it..i wasn't joking.

well, i never thought that it would be too soon..thank God.

Last night I asked myself where was that old shara who used to tell people that everything has its own place, own time and own reason? Then I started to realize that I have been so deaf..and blind..and stupid..

Deaf for not hearing all those people around me who say things that would cheer me up. But now I'm hearing them again. Thank God I've been surrounded by caring and loving friends.

Blind for not seeing that the solutions to my problems are readily available right in front of me.

Solution Number 1: Incomplete grade in PI100.

Surely my parents and friends would not disown me if I wouldn't be able to complete that pain-in-my-ass course..at least dahil sa katamaran kaya ako na-incomplete, at hindi dahil sa kabobohan..but don't you think it's worse?? The hell I care! I'll be able to complete it anyway. Syempre hindi ko muna sasabihin sa magulang ko na incomplete ako sa PI100..saka nalang pag na-complete ko na..shhh.. And to complete it, I have to make an interview with a Rizalista in Calamba.. honestly, I don’t have any plans yet. But I know I’ll come up with something..si shara pa!

Solution Number 2: Change of Plan of Study.

It’s a goodbye for HFDS12 (Human Physiology) and MCB103 (Medical Microbiology), yes. But a welcome to HFDS11 (Human Development) and VMCB124 (Fundamentals of Immunology). Who knows, I’ll be meeting more interesting people in those areas? New set of classmates, new set of fun!!

Stupid for being so deaf..and blind..and for letting things push me around..and for cursing a lot..and for not smiling the way I used to..and for wrinkling my face..and for amplifying my pains..and for not being optimistic..and for taking for granted the blessings I have received.. But I don’t think I was stupid when I cried.

When I woke up this morning, I had that same smile that I used to have before the Queen of the Damned started ruining my life..I almost slapped myself for being idiotically affected by what had happened to me since Saturday.

She almost won, but I did better.

I am back..the adorable, beautiful, charming and full of charm, darling, exciting, feather in the arm, good, heavenly, idol, jack and jill, kissable, lovelife in the eyes, can-go-all-long-day, alphabetically-speaking-okay, making-one’s-life-complete, and very sweet Shara is here again. This is the thing called confidence..or overconfidence??

The day is fine in spite the clouds suspended above. It might rain like it did the other days, yes, but this time I have my purple umbrella with me. Isn’t it great?

it all started last saturday..i thought it was just an asshole weekend..but it turned out to be an asshole week.

i'm doomed.desperate.hopeless.
damn.

kelangan ko palitan ang dalawang subjects na inihuli ko talaga kasi feeling ko sila ang magse-save ng aking academic career.
shit.ayokong palitan yung dalawang yun.
pero so far, wala akong choice.
goodbye human physiology and medmicro kapag wala akong nakitang 9 tao pang may ganitong problema.

wahhh!!!ang lupit talaga.

gawin ko nalang daw na official subject ang french10 kesa kunin ko pang extra..you think it's wise?

dahil kulang pa ako ng isang major course..ni-suggest ni ma'am ang fundamentals of immunology..ayos sana kapalit ng medmicro..kaso sa vet yata yun e..tsaka parang naaalala ko ang huling part ng zoo173lect, yung laging natutulog nalang ako..the good old days..hehehe

puro prob ako ngayon 'no?
gusto ko nalang maawa sa sarili ko, pero it's not so shara..kaya kahit alam kong mag-isa lang ako this time, i'll have to fight..ang drama, pero yun naman talaga dapat..papa will be so proud of me kapag natapos ko lahat 'to..go,go lang!!

yung pi100??the hell with it.the hell with her.

1. those who love shara

and,

2. those who despise shara

i owe the number ones a lot..and i love them, too. they serve as my angels. no kidding.

i curse the number twos a lot..and i despise them, too. they are a bunch of monkeys at my back. no kidding.

"Get ready to get wet!!" –WF teacher

"Yeah..why not get wet?? Minsan lang naman." –shara

Minsan lang talaga. Hindi ko pa kasi naranasang mabasa ng ulan. Yesterday, I decided to get myself wet. Pero binitin lang ako. Di naman kasi malakas.

Against the cold wind, inconsiderate drizzle and stiff leg muscles shouting in pain, I covered the 5-km walk in 41 min and 26 sec. Pretty fast, huh? I achieved my target: to be able to be in the upper 20 of our class. I was 20^th in the overall ranking and 9^th in the girls division. I think I did better than I expected. Blog ko ‘to, walang kokontra!!

One subject down. Two to go.

“Crush mo’ko ‘no?” –Macky (Sam Milby)

“E ano naman kung crush kita?” –Aira (Tony Gonzaga)

Dahil magiging sobrang busy na ako sa mga susunod na gabi (um, well, sana..), kahit mag-isa nanood ako ng movies kagabi..err..Filipino movies. Akalain mo yun..

Haven’t watched any Filipino film since A Love Story (Aga Mulach, Maricel Soriano and Angelica Panganiban). Last night, I killed my time over My Big Love (Sam Milby and Tony Gonzaga) and Supah papalicious (Vhong Navarro and Valerie Concepcion) instead of attending a group meeting. Pasaway!!

Tuwang-tuwa ako sa My Big Love, but it doesn’t follow na okay na si Sam ah. Meron kasi sa kanya na di appealing para sa'kin kaya di ko s'ya ma-appreciate. Okay yung story. Hindi mushy. Hindi naman baduy. May sense rin naman. Kilig din kahit papano. Tsaka may something. In even learned things from it..Tony’s program..

1. Set your goal…I always do.

2. Start today…I’ll think about it or you can just bribe me with sweets..

3. Take no shortcuts…but I love shortcuts!

4. Motivate yourself by your inspiration…Hmmm..no comment..

5. Be happy…why not? Hakuna matata!!

Yung Supah papalicious naman, ewan, ang corny. Fast forward ko na nga pinanood e. Nakakabagot kasi. Inantok tuloy ako.

To Miss C.O. y R.

by José Rizal

(A Translation from the Spanish by Nick Joaquin)

Why ask for those unintellectual verses 

that once, insane with grief, I sang aghast? 

Or are you maybe throwing in my face 

my rank ingratitude, my bitter past? 

Why resurrect unhappy memories 

now when the heart awaits from love a sign, 

or call the night when day begins to smile, 

not knowing if another day will shine? 

You wish to learn the cause of this dejection 

delirium of despair that anguish wove? 

You wish to know the wherefore of such sorrows, 

and why, a young soul, I sing not of love? 

Oh, may you never know why! For the reason 

brings melancholy but may set you laughing. 

Down with my corpse into the grave shall go 

another corpse that's buried in my stuffing! 

Something impossible, ambition, madness, 

dreams of the soul, a passion and its throes  

Oh, drink the nectar that life has to offer 

and let the bitter dregs in peace repose! 

Again I feel the impenetrable shadows 

shrouding the soul with the thick veils of night: 

a mere bud only, not a lovely flower, 

because it's destitute of air and light  

Behold them: my poor verses, my damned brood 

and sorrow suckled each and every brat! 

Oh, they know well to what they owe their being, 

and maybe they themselves will tell you what.

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Madrama ang lolo mo!

O di ba? Yan ang ating babaerong pambansang bayani.

hehehe

source: http://joserizal.info/Writings/Poetry/poetry.lwp.htm#To%20Josephina%20(To%20Miss%20C.O.%20y%20R.)

Merci beaucoup de partager mon anniversaire avec moi.

En raison de vos salutations ce jour est devenu plus signicatif.

Il s'est senti grand d'être rappelé.

Dieu vous bénissent tout.

Mama

Papa

Jay

Che

El

Ten

Tita Glo

Lola Paz

Tita Cely

Jan-jan

Kathrine

Shayne

AA

Remi

Pamella

April

Glaiza

Lea

Cindy

Katrina

Ussel

Kathleen Jane

Jonna

Charis

Roma

Auntie Lyn

Mamang

Melai

Janice

Sir Gilbert

Julie Mae

Tita Pam

Tito Obet

Nikki

Nico

Neng

Ivan

Tita Resty

Mac

Boy

Lolo

Eldrin

Gen

Bianca

Dannah

Achel

Nina

Mike

Rochelle

Rico

Herbert

Rupert

Ryan

Anne

Apple

Kat

Boji

Joyce

Dovie

Crysta

Cherry

Dina

Verna

Liezl

Maan

Acielle

Rj

J'accepte toujours plus de salutations et de cadeaux.

En tant que toujours, il est mieux vaut tard que jamais, bien ?

chalkleight

chalkleight

raem23_sha@yahoo.com



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In English

In English

Thanks a lot for sharing my birthday with me.

Because of your greetings this day has become more meaningful.

It felt great to be remembered.

God bless you all.

Mama

Papa

Jay

Che

El

Ten

Tita Glo

Lola Paz

Tita Cely

Jan-jan

Kathrine

Shayne

AA

Remi

Pamella

April

Glaiza

Lea

Cindy

Katrina

Ussel

Kathleen Jane

Jonna

Charis

Roma

Auntie Lyn

Mamang

Melai

Janice

Sir Gilbert

Julie Mae

Tita Pam

Tito Obet

Nikki

Nico

Neng

Ivan

Tita Resty

Mac

Boy

Lolo

Eldrin

Gen

Bianca

Dannah

Achel

Nina

Mike

Rochelle

Rico

Herbert

Rupert

Ryan

Anne

Apple

Kat

Boji

Joyce

Dovie

Crysta

Cherry

Dina

Verna

Liezl

Maan

Acielle

Rj

I am still accepting more greetings and gifts.

As always, it’s better late than never, right?

chalkleight

chalkleight

raem23_sha@yahoo.com



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Wednesday, May 07, 2008







Grant my wishes..

Grant my wishes..

It’s my birthday today. It’s supposed to be my day. Supposed to be.

Pero nagmumukmok ako ngayon. Bakit ganon?? Habang tumatagal mas parang nagiging wala nalang ang birthday ng isang tao. I want my natal day to be as was when I was younger.

Celebrated. Remembered.

Hindi kagaya nito. Maliban sa mga text messages, calls, missed calls, emails, wala na. Mag-isa lang ako.

Marami akong dapat gawin, basahin, asikasuhin. Hindi ko pa nasisimulan ang kahit ano at parang wala pa naman akong balak magsimula so far. Yun ngang term paper ko due tomorrow e nasa hangin pa rin. Birthday ko walang kokontra.

Just read on.

Continue reading.

And grant my simple wishes.

Since bukas pa ng gabi ang celebration (bukas lang medyo maluwag sked ko e), here is a list ng mga gusto kong gawin instead na tumunganga dito or mga gusto kong gawin para sa’kin ng mga kaibigan ko o ng kahit sino para sa aking kaarawan. Simple lang talaga mga gusto kong mangyari ngayong araw.

1. makatanggap ng isang sobrang nakaka-touch na message regarding my existence..hahaha di pa nakakaalis sa egocentric stage!!
2. makakita ng fireworks display (syempre mamayang gabi) yung maraming purple at gold na combi..kahit hindi para sa’kin basta makakita lang ako..malabo ‘to..
3. tawagan nalang ako ng mga nagtetext sa’kin para bumabati..hassle magreply e.
4. maging maayos ang presentation namin sa pi100..yung conclusion mo, simulan mo na!!
5. may mag-announce na walang pasok sa sts1 mamaya at cancelled ang submission ng term paper, play presentation at long quiz bukas..the best ‘to!!
6. matapos agad ang prelims namin mamaya sa WF..3km walk..i’ll need energy influx for this one..
7. regalo??hmm..a good book will be sincerely appreciated..i’m having trouble looking for one e..pwede na rin ang cake, ice cream, chocolate or kahit anong matamis (now na) para solo ko pa..bukas kasi may mga kaagaw na akong bisita e.nyahahaha...kahit ano..di naman ako mapili e.

I’ll be blowing my candles. Grant my wish.^_^

chalkleight

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Monday, May 05, 2008







joke lang 'to..burahin ko rin 'to after a while..hehehe

joke lang 'to..burahin ko rin 'to after a while..hehehe

good looking guy in a silly red shirt

e pano..yung isang tao na lagi nalang akong nili-link kay **** e nakita ko kanina..shit..laude pala sya..di ko nga inakala na cute rin pala..wala kasi akong pakialam sa kanya dati..binu-bully ko lang kasi sya tapos nalaman ko nag-teaching demo sya kahapon..waaahhh!!!ang cute nya kaya kanina..bagay pala sa kanya ang red halos matorete ako nung tinawag nya ako..siguro birthday nya kaya sya naka-red..dati tinutukso lang ako ng mga friends ko dun..waaahhhhrrrr..ok din pala sya!!shit..baka lunukin ko sinabi ko dati!!

help!pamy!!!shucks talaga..sana nakikita mo ako ngayon!!

chalkleight

chalkleight

raem23_sha@yahoo.com



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Excerpt02May2008,5:40pm

Excerpt02May2008,5:40pm

My day was a little bit twisted. Hmmm. It was a little off the usual beat, shall we say that?

This morning, the bright sun, while taking its might ride above, didn’t give a hoot or whatsoever to one mindless creature still curled up and rolling in her bed.

The fresh air told me that it will be a mercifully pressureless day. I checked my phone to be sure of the omen. And alas! No message or note from the demanding ones! A good omen indeed. It was going to be a lucky day! I allowed myself to pretend some more that I was still sleeping.

It was already 9:30am when I finally got out of my bed and started my daily morning personal chores. My life suddenly went out of my grasp the moment I got out of the dorm. Exaggerated?? Maybe.

Strike 1:

I have no idea what possessed me when I decided to take that short cut thru the freedom park on my way to my class. I stopped walking down that path since the start of the preparation for the graduation because that “strip of road” was “closed”. But I noticed that the residents of this part of the campus proved to have this gene for making a trail just like what ants do. And I, being unusually stubborn this morning, decided to go down the freedom park via that “ant trail” which is two and a half meters long, 65°inclined, and ruthlessly slippery even though it’s dry. The soil is not yet compact in that area, that’s why.

I took the first step down. I felt the sandy soil behind my slippers. It was okay. On the second step, s***!, I took the plunge. The trail rejected my weight and let me slide from that spot all the way down..my butt taking all the punishment. No joke, it was awful.

Being born physically weak (not even able to run until college), I avoided those kinds of unfortunate events since time immemorial. That’s why I wasn’t able to enjoy my childhood running with playmates. As a child I would rather kill my time staring at the television, reading books, writing my name or anyone’s, playing lego, puzzles, bricks and the likes. No, I’m not that geeky isolated type. It’s just that even then, I hate encounters with morons. I just contended myself with those stuffs that one would likely think that I will not reach my tenth year without an eyeglass. Whoever thought so, as I can say, is definitely wrong because in the next few days I’ll be turning 21 and my eyes are still almost-20-20.

As I remember, my last slide happened during my first time to Flatrocks where the trail was still muddy and slippery. You can’t blame me for that one. And besides, lucky told me to slide so I did..yun nga lang, on my butt..the instruction was to slide on foot.

It almost felt nice to slide once again this morning. I was even laughing when I picked myself up. I looked around to check on who was around. No one. Thanks God. I told you, it was my lucky day.

Strike 2:

Since I was not able to check my email this day, I didn’t read the announcement in PI100 about our class (actually it was not a class, tell you about it later) to be held in the DL Umali steps.

I went to our classroom and, remember the guy who laughs like hell??, he was there too. He didn’t know about the change of classroom as well. Then, a bit later, one of my classmates came up and told us to go to DL Umali steps. Mind you, it was like seven inches from the sun outside. The heat can readily burn anyone’s skin.

Unfortunately, I didn’t have my umbrella with me and the guy who laughs like hell had a big one with him. I had no choice but to ask him to share his umbrella with me otherwise I’ll end up like a grilled potato. As expected I forced myself to encourage a little chitchat on our way just for me to look not so impolite.

Hay…lucky day, wasn’t it??

Strike3:

PI100. Rizal bilang bata.

Run. Jump. Limbo rack. Jump. Sack race. Answer a question, if wrong then sing, if correct then proceed. Strike the can three meters ahead with a slipper, if missed then sing, otherwise, proceed. Modified piko. Luksong baka. Walk with paperplates between the legs, arms and neck. Push the matchbox using the eggplant tied in the waist. Look for the chocolate in plate of flour. Eat the chocolate. Run towards the start. Then next player’s turn to pass that ruthlessly incredible obstacle course.

Did Rizal really play those games?? I shall know on Monday. S***! I do not regret not being able to run like a madman when I was younger.

I thought I’ll have lesser trouble in crossing that course since I am, as I can confidently say, improving physically lately. But hell!! I realized that I can’t jump an inch (curse that luksong-baka part, where I became the next to biggest laughing stock ever!!), I can’t control my feet in pushing that darn stone in the modified piko station, I can’t bend backwards, I can’t do the eggplant thing (which everyone thought was fun but it was definitely not, it was where I sweated like a pig), I can’t bear the taste of raw flour, I can’t even remember the tune of Ako ay may Lobo.

Darn. Am I that old??

No, no, no, no..it’s just that I didn’t spend my childhood that way.

We ranked 2^nd anyway.

Still a lucky day??

Of course. After that tragedy, I let myself have chocolates for compensation.

chalkleight

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raem23_sha@yahoo.com



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Saturday, May 03, 2008







waahhhhrrrrr....

waahhhhrrrrr....

....ahhr--tsshhh!!!!

tuwing nakikita ko ang unggoy na yun parang gustung-gusto ko nang umalis dito sa elbi!!!!

kaasar talaga.

wala naman akong magawa kundi tumingin nalang nang diretso sa kanya..i won't look down, oh no!game pa akong makipaglaban ng titigan sa kanya..feeling nya!!

chalkleight

chalkleight

raem23_sha@yahoo.com



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