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audentes fortuna juvat: She almost won, but I did better.
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chalkleight
chalkleight
Los Banos, Laguna, Philippines
usually first impression s'kin mataray,masungit and the likes..uhm,sad to say totoo un kc hndi ako msyadong sociable unless there's something in one person that i really like..sbi ng mga close s'kin good listener dw ako but i think im better in ignoring what they are saying pero when i feel n kylangn mo tlga ng mkikinig sau game ako lalo n kung nkakarelate ako s topic mo..'yoko s mga self-proclaimed..those who say a lot 'bout themselves (who cares 'bout them,anyway?) hehehe..trip ko mga humorous kc moody ako..another thing 'bout me is ung temper ko..uhm,it's always at the edge, u knw what i mean..if u nid 2 knw more basahin mo mga testi s'kin kc im sure they say a lot of things 'bout me.. :]
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
She almost won, but I did better.
She almost won, but I did better.
Last night I asked myself where was that old shara who used to tell people that everything has its own place, own time and own reason? Then I started to realize that I have been so deaf..and blind..and stupid..
Deaf for not hearing all those people around me who say things that would cheer me up. But now I'm hearing them again. Thank God I've been surrounded by caring and loving friends.
Blind for not seeing that the solutions to my problems are readily available right in front of me.
Solution Number 1: Incomplete grade in PI100.
Surely my parents and friends would not disown me if I wouldn't be able to complete that pain-in-my-ass course..at least dahil sa katamaran kaya ako na-incomplete, at hindi dahil sa kabobohan..but don't you think it's worse?? The hell I care! I'll be able to complete it anyway. Syempre hindi ko muna sasabihin sa magulang ko na incomplete ako sa PI100..saka nalang pag na-complete ko na..shhh.. And to complete it, I have to make an interview with a Rizalista in Calamba.. honestly, I don’t have any plans yet. But I know I’ll come up with something..si shara pa!
Solution Number 2: Change of Plan of Study.
It’s a goodbye for HFDS12 (Human Physiology) and MCB103 (Medical Microbiology), yes. But a welcome to HFDS11 (Human Development) and VMCB124 (Fundamentals of Immunology). Who knows, I’ll be meeting more interesting people in those areas? New set of classmates, new set of fun!!
Stupid for being so deaf..and blind..and for letting things push me around..and for cursing a lot..and for not smiling the way I used to..and for wrinkling my face..and for amplifying my pains..and for not being optimistic..and for taking for granted the blessings I have received.. But I don’t think I was stupid when I cried.
When I woke up this morning, I had that same smile that I used to have before the Queen of the Damned started ruining my life..I almost slapped myself for being idiotically affected by what had happened to me since Saturday.
She almost won, but I did better.
I am back..the adorable, beautiful, charming and full of charm, darling, exciting, feather in the arm, good, heavenly, idol, jack and jill, kissable, lovelife in the eyes, can-go-all-long-day, alphabetically-speaking-okay, making-one’s-life-complete, and very sweet Shara is here again. This is the thing called confidence..or overconfidence??
The day is fine in spite the clouds suspended above. It might rain like it did the other days, yes, but this time I have my purple umbrella with me. Isn’t it great?
